遗憾

没到今天，我也不懂原来你对我来说是那么的重要。知道了这个消息，我第一个想起的就是你。我不懂应该怎么做，应该直接告诉你呢，还是像平时那样当作什么事也没发生过。说了怕你担心，不说有怕自己越陷越深。原本想着要如何帮你庆祝生日，给你些什么惊喜的，但现在却什么都做不到了。原本想要对你说的一切，现在变成只能问你这段日子，你开心吗？对不起，原谅我再次的爽约。

这几个星期里，和你相处得真的很开心。虽然只是以朋友的身分，但也很满足了。其实，我真的很想很想可以再次跟你在一起，但现在，这一切都不可能了。为什么快乐的时间总是那么短暂？为什么每次快要到最开心的时候，就要有事情发生？

刚才，在信息里被你逼了后，我把事情告诉了你。但我后悔了，要是我没说，我们也许还可以像之前那样开开心心地信息，不会搞到像现在这样，没了话题。是不是因为告诉了你原本在你生日当天想对你说的，让你不敢再多说呢？还是什么原因？我真的不应该把一切告诉你，我做错了。那现在，我还可以做些什么？我只是希望看到的，每天都开开心心的你。

今晚又睡不着了，一方面在准备着明天的东西，一方面在想着，还应不应该联络你。我不想任何人因为这件事而担心和不开心，尤其是你。明天，我还能不能像往常那样，醒来后，跟你说声早安呢？

我不懂你有没有看我的部落格，但真的希望你可以看到，所以今天特地用中文来写。

Love you & Miss you  <3

Nothing Gonna Change My Love For You

In this few weeks, I'd stop updating my blog because lots of rumors spreading around and ruined my mood. But, when I think back again, why should I care about that. I live for myself, not others. Why should I care about what others are thinking of me? I know what I'm doing and as long as I think it's right. The most important thing is, I enjoy my life in this way.

Okay, back to the topic. I'd really spent a great time with HIM in this few weeks. Although every time when we want to meet, I have to travel for a very long distance, but I think this is worth it. Whenever I feel so down, but when I saw you, you energize me up. There's really no others can make me feel so. You are so special. No one can replace your position in me. Even though we are friends now, but I feel comfortable with it. What I wish for, is just what we are having now. Nothing more I hope other than to make you happy. Your special day is around the corner, hope that I could give you a surprise on your special day.

Other than this, my team (JiaRuey, Daxter, SueMin, Kelvin and me) will be participating in the Digi Challenge For Change competition on the coming Sunday. Meetings and preparations had been gone through for the past few days. Everyone is trying their best to prepare and practice for the competition. And of course the one who we should thank the most is our advisor, Mr. Lee. Without him, I think we would have been in a big trouble in preparing for the competition. Good Luck and All The Best to my team. We can do it~!

Love you & Miss you  <3

A Tiring Day

Early in the morning I'd wake up to prepare myself. It's only 5.00 am in the morning. First time waking up so early. I am so regret to sleep so early last night and missed the chance to sms with you. After fetching KaiYuan, we reached Union Primary School at 7.00 am and MingWah also arrived at the same time.

We started our duty to prepare for the Graduation Ceremony of Union Kindergarten. Setting up the laptop and PA system, arranging the car park for parents, training the prefects, three of us were already exhausted before the ceremony start, and all our shirt were also wet. Luckily everything goes on quite smoothly. And of course, the main thing that makes me stay happy is you are sms-ing with me. Although what we were chatting were just twaddle, but I felt so happy. The only thing that I don't like about is the attitude of the children nowadays. They didn't even know about the sense of respect. I'm proud to be well-brought up by my parents and also well-trained in cadet about respect.

After the graduation ceremony, three of us again have to arranged the chairs and cleaned up the hall. The prefects were just ..... Don't know how to say either. Later, we had lunch with all the staff and went home. I nearly fell asleep when driving. It's really too tired and now I just woke up from my afternoon nap. :)

Love you & Miss you <3

An Occasional Meet With You

I feel so happy today, although I'm so sick right now. The only reason is, I saw you. So unexpectedly. You really look so smart in your formal wear. And you changed a lot. Therefore, I decided to finish this post only went on bed.

Today, I went to Eastin Hotel for a talk after meeting with HECDC committees. While waiting at Eastin Hotel, I saw someone who look so alike with you. I thought I'm just thinking too much. But to confirm, I sms you and you said you were really there. I felt extremely happy because I thought that I wouldn't be seeing you anymore after we broke up. In the hall, we still keep sms and during break time, I didn't even thought that you will call me. After the talk, we still had the chance to have a short chat and I'd to rush home.

Unfortunately, like all of my friends know, I used the wrong way again and after a big turn went back to Eastin Hotel. At that time, I saw you walking from the hotel towards your motorcycle. Actually I wanted to tell you that I will fetch you to your bike as it had started raining, but I don't dare. On my way back home, I was so worry about you as the downpour was so heavy and you always ride so fast. Luckily, you reached home safely. I was really sick after coming back from Eastin Hotel.

Going to sleep soon. Nites world :)

Love you & Miss you <3

A Weary Week

I have been disappeared from my blog for about one week. Plenty of things to be done and completed. Now, I'm going to briefly describe what I've done in this one week time.

22/10/2011 (Saturday)

Early in the morning, as what we had promised each other, KaiYuan, KhayYuen and me went hiking in Youth Park. It had been a long time I didn't wake up at 5:30 am. The night before was raining heavily and caused the floor to be slippery. After hiking, we went for 'Dim Sum' and later went to Greenland MacDonald for meeting about the annual camp this year. Spend more than 5 hours for the meeting and it's the first time having for a meeting for such a long time. Hope everything will goes on smoothly in our HECDC annual camp.

Way up to the hill

27/10/2011 (Thursday ; Today)

Today is my Listening Test for English for Business and Trade. I think I had did it badly. The accent of the speaker really terrible. Can't even understand what he is saying. And as expected I also don't know how to answer the questions. Next Thursday will be the Speaking Test. Unfortunately, I will be the first one to be tested. Can't get any tips from the others so have to study every single things in my notes. Hope I can do better in this test if not I will be dead.

Started to feel tired of my recent lifestyle. Besides studying and thinking ways to earn extra money, nothing else that I can do. Till now, I will still spend a little time of my day thinking of you. How are you recently? Hope you will be fine and stay happy always.

Love you & Miss you <3

Bowling ; Birthday Wishes

I was seriously ill for last few days, that's why didn't update my blog. Fever, flu, headache all came in at the same time. But I realize that the best medicine for me is go out and play. That's a good excuse for a playful person like me.

Yesterday my class ended at 12.30 pm. As it was so early, JiaRuey, Daxter and me decided to go bowling at Sunshine Square in the afternoon. Of course, I won't missed out my best buddies, KaiYuan and KhayYuen. Having lot's of fun over there and everyone was tired after bowling. But I think it's too far to travel all the way from Tanjung Bungah to Sunshine Square just for bowling. Hope that the renovation at Penang Bowl can be completed as soon as possible.

And yesterday were TseMin's and PuiYee's birthday. Happy birthday to my lovely wife and best friend. May all of your dreams come true and have a blast in your birthday.

Just a short update. Time for revision again.

Happy Birthday =)

Love you & Miss you <3

Study Mode Activated

Five more weeks to my final examination of the second semester. As what I have promised myself, I've been start doing my revision and prepare for my examination in November. No more studying at the eleventh hour for me. I want myself to be in the state of readiness when I'm in the examination hall. Four subjects (English For Business And Trade, Introduction To Business, Business Communication and Principle And Practice Of Management) to be conquered this time. I want to maintain the result like previous semester, and I know I can do it.

Tomorrow will be my Introduction To Business presentation on Public Bank. Hope everything goes on smoothly. The biggest obstacles for me is being nervous. I will overcome it. Good luck to all my teammates JiaRuey, Daxter and SueMin. Do our best tomorrow.

What you've told me this few days I don't that whether it is true or not, but I think I need to reconsider it again because I don't want to be fooled again. Now what I want is just focus on my study. (Another HIM)

Love you & Miss you <3

I'll Always Be There For You

Today I sleep for whole day long. Isn't that I don't want to wake up, it's just whenever I wake up, I will think of you and I know that I can't have you with me anymore. I keep looking at your Facebook to see whether you did update news about yourself. I wish I could know more about you no matter you are happy or sad.

We should had met in Form 3, but unfortunately we didn't get to know each other. One year later, we had the opportunity to know so accidentally in a game. Actually before the game, I had saw you when having our lunch in camp. In my first sight, you had caught my attention. I don't know what's the reason I will choose you for my forfeit.

But since then, we got along so well. You always made me smile and without you I'd be very different. I never imagined I'd been falling so hard for you. Now, I'm on the edge of giving up. I know that we can't be together anymore, but I still can't get rid of the feeling that I have you.

The only thing that I could do now is see you in my dreams and hold you close to my heart. I'm still waiting for you to come back.

Love you & Miss you <3

Wonderful Day With BFFs

I can't remember it was already how long I didn't feel so happy like today. I feel so great and I can be myself when I spent my time with my BFFs (KaiYuan and KhayYuen). It seems like all my worries are gone. We can talk about anything and everything, and we are also good listeners for each other. That's what friends are for. =)

Okay, description of what we had done today. At first, we planned to go bowling at Penang Bowl when ended up cancelled it off due to renovation at Penang Bowl. But it didn't ruined our mood of going out to play. We changed it to play snooker at 1st Avenue and later had our dinner in BBQ Steamboat at New World Park.

Here comes the climax of the day after our dinner. We played around at the fountain in front of New World Park. It was really fun. All of us went into the middle of the fountain to wait for the water to splash up and it was very exciting. We pushed each other to the middle so that they will get wet, but ended up all of us also got wet. Lots of people at Old Town were looking as us playing with the water. Maybe some of you will feel that it was embarrassing, but for us, it was totally not. As long as we have fun, we won't bother about how others think about us. "We live for ourselves, not others"

Later before we went home, we bought each other 'The Smurfs' key chains. Although the key chains are not very expensive, but the things which is really valuable is our friendship. Maybe sometimes we will quarrel, but nothing will affect our friendship. Friends Forever~

Love you & Miss you <3

HECDC, My Home

After your leaving, the only place which I can feel love is HECDC (Heng Ee Civil Defence Cadet). Flipping back those photos in my laptop, I only realize that most of my photos were taken with HECDC members. It's already more than one year I left, but the days I spent with you guys won't be forgotten. The joy and sadness we experienced together when we gained or lost something, won't be felt by others. Tears and sweats during these moment will remain in my mind forever. How I wish I could still be with you all always. You guys mean everything to me. Hope that I could help you guys when needed. Let's us spread out our HECDC's spirit. "If you think you are the best, then you are the best"

Best Buddies in KPA (YiYing, Adeline, Me, Engin, PuiYee)

YiYing, YeeHue, Me, Adeline

KaiYuan, Me, Zoey

Back from State Camp

In Johor Natioanal Camp

Tuan Razali & Me

Love you & Miss you <3